Innocence

"Field Of Innocence"
[sung by evanescence]

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believing in everything
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I really like the lyrics of this song.
For english, we're reading a book called "I'm not scared" by Niccolo Ammaniti. It's about a 9 year old boy, who loses his childhood innocence, when he finds out by accident that his family and the whole town is involved in a kidnapping of a wealthy boy, the same age as him. after this discovery, his life is never the same again. the fact that everything he believed in, is suddenly turned up side down, and everything he was familiar with is suddenly so foreign. its kind of sad. anyways, this song just reminded me of it.

this kind of thing happens everyday though. the whole can't turn back time thing. when you find out something that you later regret finding out about.
its like we are kids losing our innocence in a sense. cos once we find out the truth about someone in which we thought could be trusted or someone whom we are close to... things start to change, you start to think of that person differently, even if you tried to forget it.. you simply can't because it will always be in the back of your mind.
it hurts the most.. realizing just how unstable everything around you can be. sometimes the things/people you put the most trust in can change and may not always be what they seem to be.

-- I'm not sure if I'm making any sense. oh wells. ><"

currently listening to // obsession - babybash ft frankie j
currently reading // deception point - dan brown (a must read!)
currently wearing // my pink kookai pj's
currently craving // sushii =P
currently feeling // bored. exhuasted.

one more day of school !! (",)